Dream (deep words)

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When we dream the dream

When we move through stream

Like a crazy theme

And those children stage

Then we old so soon

And the time passes

But we can’t stop to dream

So where the starting lead

Till the ending gone

And we all move on

But we can’t forget to dream

Some are so lucky

Some are so unlucky

But we would do

What the world teach us

That’s the tragedy

What’s the remedy?

But we can’t be free

Our wings tide up

So we losing faith

So we turn our backs

And we loosing shades

For what we dream to be

And starts we dreaming again

And starts we live again

But won’t have that wings

To fly above the sea

And that limit comes

Won’t have that time to thrice

And then do what we do

And here is my time thus comes…

AM

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The Time

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We are just the crazy moment of life,

Time is divided into many many miles,

We move on with time but the memories reside,

With the moon rise, when the sun hides,

It all starts with the seed grows inside,

A new born baby comes into our life,

They fall from heaven and changes our lives,

And make the memories of our lifetimes,

Every day passes with time, they will grow on,

But we didn’t know how fast the wind blows,

Life is just a myth from dusk till dawn,

And all of a sudden in the end, it will all gone,

Everything resides in our memories for so long,

And we changes with time and new stories will bring on,

We move on with time but time didn’t same as it was,

Alas! We ignore every day but every day counts to build home,

How fast time flies, they say since we born,

It’s like we lives our life in some days unfold,

Life is just a story of many memories withhold,

But we never live in present as long as we want,

We soon become grownups and forget what we want,

And relationships become deeper and soon they will be much more,

Time has the power to unravel our every move,

And solve every problems when we will be moving on,

Time moves forward and save ourselves in past,

We wanted to go back but couldn’t pause the time,

Season changes but we remain same,

Leaves can grow back again but never be as same,

Oh dear! We can live some more days,

But in the end we have to go back from where we came,

Now what, what had to remain,

In the end we realize only the moment goes since we came,

Time passes so fast can’t even grab a shade,

And now after all pass my life, I see myself a boy again,

Sun rises, sun shines, but in the end sun hides,

And leave the sky alone in the ashes of twilight.

AM

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The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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The Last Letter

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Hi Zippi call me whatever you like,

I am getting old but you have whole world alive,

Its been months to see you but I hope you same as I,

Time moving fast but you never leave my mind,

We had a great time together, now I wonder why?

Our first dance together, i can still remember that time,

You held my hands so softly, sometimes I drop the wine,

Smell of yours got in me, from the day I breath you first time,

We were so happy young, once we spend a whole week lying,

Sometimes I laugh but that thought makes me crying,

How stupid I was then but you never complain your whole life,

It makes me sad how you went far from my life,

And I never make a move and say sorry, I was disguised,

It takes me so long to understand now, I realize,

I know I don’t deserve you but I regret that all time,

Every morning I hope you here and Every morning my heart lied,

I would if I could Take it back but the clock never ticks back time,

The past is all I had and those memories in present lye’s,

Sometimes I believe we were together whether you no longer my bride,

I miss you so badly but I can’t do anything tonight,

As I am dying oldly and getting out of your life,

I am sitting on the chair thinking that how we make love in valentines,

I am into you thoroughly and hope you forgive me one last time,

I love to spend last moments thinking about you as my wife,

And love to hear the music in which we usually hymn,

If we were young again, I never leave your side,

I treat you as my angel in better or worse, you are mine,

You far from me tonight but still pounding in my heart cry,

I know you miss me too but never as missed as I am,

visit me to my grave, I desire when you come across your rage,

No matter what it takes, I will be waiting for you there,

Farewell and Goodbye my love, I think last moments of mine came,

I am little scared to die but I hope we will meet in paradise,

Now at last I leave you with this letter tonight, with all the feelings inside,

Which I kept from you those years because I never find the words suffice,

Don’t forget to smile and have a good life,

And everythings will get alright, your’s Jessie, GOODBYE.

AM

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Halloween Night

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Somebody watching you over tonight,

In the Halloween night, in the devil’s sight,

When we get lost in the dreary night,

Trick or Treat remains the only choice,

In many ways the evil will rise,

In many costumes the children mimes,

All night long the street were thrive,

Blood moon, dark night and cryptic hype,

Far away in the cave of haunted tribe,

Black hair, dark eyes, a witch reside,

Watching in the mirror for a lonely child,

To hex him away on her broom that night,

The moon just like the watching eye,

That night was cursed in the bleakly cry,

The demon’s adhere towards whom they like,

But people in the dark faith often demise,

But they have many faces to disguise,

With deceitful eyes and evils bribe,

Seldom breath and murmuring noise,

A pawn being move over tremble night,

Many of you who don’t believe and despite,

To those who astray from that baneful midnight,

Will be mark by the devil’s grim full trait,

and grumble in the agony of withering blight.

AM

Last Night on the Ship

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Sky and ocean making wonderful night,

Where wind breezes from the sky,

Touch my ears and whisper not to fright,

Just blowing away the ship of knight,

Like a dream become true that night,

Tis me fairy, through the wind just like,

Sparkling stars watching me that night,

Showing ship the way, as they were drive,

Smooth and cold how fishes could survive,

I am looking in the water for a long long time,

I also slept a bit like I have a dizzily eyes,

Something peek from the water, I noticed that time,

Many dolphins follows me, when I spark the light,

Don’t tell anybody, they whisper me in my mind,

As they taking the ship where we sleep alright,

After that night I woke up blind,

I slept in the ship, is that the dream so bright,

I walked through the dock till end of the line,

And saw an island coming towards mine,

I thanks the ship, dolphins and the sky,

After long long time, December again saying goodbye,

I tell the knights to increase the speed so I,

See the land and eat what we desire,

After reaching there, I remembered that time,

As I am so alone and starve to death that night,

But the God, live or die is who decides,

This is the story of that night,

When I fall asleep after many starving nights,

And see all the things like my spirit was alive,

I thank to God for keeping me alive,

And giving me new life after all the hard time, I passed by.

AM