Life


Life is just a memory, Life is such a history,

Whatever you want from it, life is just a mystery,

Design the faces in arbitrary, blur the spirit in armoury,

We move on abruptly, without expressing solidarity,

Minutes before the sunrise again it shows the reality,

It loops the time in its brutality and leave you with the curiosity,

Everyday is just the mortality, nothing but the pain and agony,

I asked you what do you want from the broken stroke of serenity,

Nothing left in this world, there is none cheerful serendipity,

Listening to the silence, heard no vibe of sanity,

Voices in my head, becoming new sound of virtuality,

Vision through my eyes is not more than a fictional symphony,

Then why do we live, life always tell the same story,

Even though the storms you survived, they entomb you under six feet dark and gloomy,

Broken souls have a different virtue of gravity,

Life doesn’t know this, its stubborn and after materialistic glory,

New endings of a chapter started, with tacit agreement of haunting,

Crowling towards the time, where you waiting impatiently frowning,

Desires and wishes are crowning from the heart a volcano erupting,

Seductive winds blowing , drawing attention towards the rampage slowly,

Prophecy is not over dear, it comes in a thousand waves bursting,

Can’t be over with life either, it shows its charm in here and after whether you close your eyes or loose mind completely!

AM.

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AM I WRONG..??

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Wrong timings and wrong actions make your life hell, and how’s that, look into your lives and think of a moment you can do better from your first kiss to divorce, from your first dream to what you really become.1533777

Is that fair..??

Is that really what you expect from yourself..??

Is it your limit..??

These are the questions world don’t understand and rather accept it they gonna blame it on you.. Wish I could make it easy but time is really slowly drifting away and till you really understood the importance of that moment your face gets above the water but your feet didn’t touch the ground and you are in the dilemma of what’s right or am I wrong..!!

We born innocent, we dream big and we are pious and clean from all sins, every one of us are beautiful so the world taught us all the tricks and manipulate us and when we made a mistake they resent us and denied of all the things we accomplished, that’s the tragedy but we fight relentlessly in our all endeavors to say what we are and what we become proudly without any consent of the world because we don’t need one to prove ourselves, we all are craving for cure from our problems.

My life always been a battlefield which made me a soldier of myself unfortunately.. If I say I don’t scared then it must be wrong. I always write some inspirational words for myself and it works like a shield between my despair and hope like:

“You can’t expect from a fish to fly and a bird to swim but they all gonna make their own way”

“We only have to be brave enough to see the destiny” etc.

I have a place where I write my inspirational thoughts when I was going through from bleak days like above as I mentioned and here’s the photo.. I hope it gives every one of you a hope in the midst of terrified problems and even then the world gives you rock-bottom then proudly say “AM I WRONG? THEN I DON’T WANT TO BE RIGHT, NOW ITS ME AGAINST THE WORLD”, Because Every finish line is the beginning of new race..!!

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The Time

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We are just the crazy moment of life,

Time is divided into many many miles,

We move on with time but the memories reside,

With the moon rise, when the sun hides,

It all starts with the seed grows inside,

A new born baby comes into our life,

They fall from heaven and changes our lives,

And make the memories of our lifetimes,

Every day passes with time, they will grow on,

But we didn’t know how fast the wind blows,

Life is just a myth from dusk till dawn,

And all of a sudden in the end, it will all gone,

Everything resides in our memories for so long,

And we changes with time and new stories will bring on,

We move on with time but time didn’t same as it was,

Alas! We ignore every day but every day counts to build home,

How fast time flies, they say since we born,

It’s like we lives our life in some days unfold,

Life is just a story of many memories withhold,

But we never live in present as long as we want,

We soon become grownups and forget what we want,

And relationships become deeper and soon they will be much more,

Time has the power to unravel our every move,

And solve every problems when we will be moving on,

Time moves forward and save ourselves in past,

We wanted to go back but couldn’t pause the time,

Season changes but we remain same,

Leaves can grow back again but never be as same,

Oh dear! We can live some more days,

But in the end we have to go back from where we came,

Now what, what had to remain,

In the end we realize only the moment goes since we came,

Time passes so fast can’t even grab a shade,

And now after all pass my life, I see myself a boy again,

Sun rises, sun shines, but in the end sun hides,

And leave the sky alone in the ashes of twilight.

AM

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The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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