AM I WRONG..??

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Wrong timings and wrong actions make your life hell, and how’s that, look into your lives and think of a moment you can do better from your first kiss to divorce, from your first dream to what you really become.1533777

Is that fair..??

Is that really what you expect from yourself..??

Is it your limit..??

These are the questions world don’t understand and rather accept it they gonna blame it on you.. Wish I could make it easy but time is really slowly drifting away and till you really understood the importance of that moment your face gets above the water but your feet didn’t touch the ground and you are in the dilemma of what’s right or am I wrong..!!

We born innocent, we dream big and we are pious and clean from all sins, every one of us are beautiful so the world taught us all the tricks and manipulate us and when we made a mistake they resent us and denied of all the things we accomplished, that’s the tragedy but we fight relentlessly in our all endeavors to say what we are and what we become proudly without any consent of the world because we don’t need one to prove ourselves, we all are craving for cure from our problems.

My life always been a battlefield which made me a soldier of myself unfortunately.. If I say I don’t scared then it must be wrong. I always write some inspirational words for myself and it works like a shield between my despair and hope like:

“You can’t expect from a fish to fly and a bird to swim but they all gonna make their own way”

“We only have to be brave enough to see the destiny” etc.

I have a place where I write my inspirational thoughts when I was going through from bleak days like above as I mentioned and here’s the photo.. I hope it gives every one of you a hope in the midst of terrified problems and even then the world gives you rock-bottom then proudly say “AM I WRONG? THEN I DON’T WANT TO BE RIGHT, NOW ITS ME AGAINST THE WORLD”, Because Every finish line is the beginning of new race..!!

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The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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