FOX


I was walking on the streets, in the middle of night,

In my mind, i was hoping can i live one last time,

Through the woods, from the hood, i run away from all lies,

I had in me but the demons stalk me around,

Cz i’m out in a doubt, some evil caught me in rocks,

Cz i’m a fox, I can’t even clever him out,

I am bound in a memory of sorrow, deep down,

So i hound my demon back from all the black clouds,

In that bleak route where i seek my revenge right,

Through dark sight, red blight eyes in the inevitable dark night,

Cz I’m alone in this war, nobody help me out,

So i follow my instincts, he didn’t even figure me out,

Life is a game of fame, these people only materialistic now,

The days are repetition but the fight is on the reputation ground,

It’s not a distress call, the ambiguity is for real now,

Forgive me for my sins, I’m not, I’m a hell bound,

Waking up everyday, I did serve my time in this fake lounge 🌎

I’m done with this world, come demon take my soul with you already now!
AM

A Fight From Demon

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That night was as cold as freeze and breeze,

I was walking and thinking how I breath,

Now its me, no wait, now inside of me,

My soul keeps asking what’s wrong with me,

where is the peace, what about my good or bad deeds,

Every time I sleep the demons follows me,grim-reaper-taking-a-walk

Across the universe, against the stars I see,

Where ever my dream goes they keep tracking me,

The life is hard but God promise me,

If I win this battle field I die heavenly,

Keeping me from bad things I had in me,

But the fight of God and Demon obnoxious me,

If the life we live in doesn’t bother him,

If the good and bad things doesn’t happening,

If there is no two sides of the enduring,

But my mind follow’s order from both of them,

My soul keeps asking from God and demon,

In their own fight why I drag between them,

I loose my mind, I don’t know what to do,

They keep playing on me like I am a toy to you,Motorcycle Details

Demon why would you, what’s the matter with you,

Why you keep haunting me, leave my soul alone,

I loose control, my mind is not a playground for you,

Whatever you say from now I abandon you,

I know God he is bad but it’s the fight of you two,

I can’t help it so why I am always drag in you,

and I am idiot to always blame everything to me,

So why it would be, every shadow keeps stalking me,

Something happening, something changing inside of me,

I am done, this world betrays me more than lies and greed,

Lies that you ever listen and deny to it,

But it’s the fact so you can’t even hide from it,

Now it’s time, I am not blind and deaf,

I can see the world from the dusky dales,

Sometime I had the dream about the loosing faith,

Oh darn it demon! but I keep my faith stronger everyday,walking_in_the_moonlight

Life is a short trip do not wish to perish away,

To die hard and live forever you can’t choose today,

Life is not your wish, So wish for a laugh and make it worth,

Because you live all summer but in the end its gone and made you stay,

I am tired of acting the moment is so dark,

Hurt me if you want but lies has no story book,

and I am cooked, my mind can’t take anymore,

And gone, I am gone to far off the road,

Now I can walk through all the valley of death,

And find you and kill you even if I have to go to hell,

The animosity of evil can make my stronger faith,

But at the end the grudge can’t even bear my name,

Now God take my soul away,

I kill the devil for you which resides in me,tumblr_static_1373848412_demonic

That’s why you keep me alive this day,

I can’t hold it against the wall of hell,

Its so much now, they came with all the force they had,

Now I am alone but I fight like a snake’s bite,

But in a minute, I no longer keep survive,

Play tragic but they would not excuse to hurt bad,

I can’t think, my brain is dead,

I keep calling you but you won’t reply me back,

Keeping me crazy from all the lies I have,

Expecting the worst but hoping for the best,

Now make my funeral, I am selling my soul to you for no payback.

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AM

The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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