Life


Life is just a memory, Life is such a history,

Whatever you want from it, life is just a mystery,

Design the faces in arbitrary, blur the spirit in armoury,

We move on abruptly, without expressing solidarity,

Minutes before the sunrise again it shows the reality,

It loops the time in its brutality and leave you with the curiosity,

Everyday is just the mortality, nothing but the pain and agony,

I asked you what do you want from the broken stroke of serenity,

Nothing left in this world, there is none cheerful serendipity,

Listening to the silence, heard no vibe of sanity,

Voices in my head, becoming new sound of virtuality,

Vision through my eyes is not more than a fictional symphony,

Then why do we live, life always tell the same story,

Even though the storms you survived, they entomb you under six feet dark and gloomy,

Broken souls have a different virtue of gravity,

Life doesn’t know this, its stubborn and after materialistic glory,

New endings of a chapter started, with tacit agreement of haunting,

Crowling towards the time, where you waiting impatiently frowning,

Desires and wishes are crowning from the heart a volcano erupting,

Seductive winds blowing , drawing attention towards the rampage slowly,

Prophecy is not over dear, it comes in a thousand waves bursting,

Can’t be over with life either, it shows its charm in here and after whether you close your eyes or loose mind completely!

AM.

Dancing in the Moonlight

May be I don’t know, maybe I get old,

Decisions were made when we stop to draw,

Life is like a pieces of broken tear of hope,

Sometimes you full of joy, sometimes you get so low,

Nothing really matters when the bud started to grow,

The wind tries him to blow, the sun tries him to glow,

He faces every season no matter how dark and so cold,

He fears the pain so hoe, sometimes he looks with Moe,

The feelings were so real, he waited the rain to fall,

He looked him in the tear, he smiled with falling drop,

He tries to get some cheer in the bleakly night of wrong,

The water gets so high, the mud started to slide,

He looked in every story to save him from that pine,

He grooming like a dime, inside of lonely mind,

The heart started to blind in the lights of gazing eyes,

The future in the shadows coming from blur to life,

Entering slowly into time, the time which hides the treasure of good laughs and sorrows reside,

We don’t know how to find, we don’t know how to bribe,

Just wait for the happy ending to find us so suffice,

The new year will arrive, the waves will break the tide,

The vows will again get better and exchange in the light of shrine,

The hope of getting stronger in the heart will again rise,

Never loose the rope of broken splices of hope,

Which leads you to the bigger and wiser end of the knot,

We find hope from the ashes and save it in twilight,

Dancing in the moonlight and spread love that all we have,

We come to see the fate from which all of it left,

We wish to get the offerings, what decisions were already made,

Happy new year and happy new life, old days will never forget.

AM

 

 

 

A Fight From Demon

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That night was as cold as freeze and breeze,

I was walking and thinking how I breath,

Now its me, no wait, now inside of me,

My soul keeps asking what’s wrong with me,

where is the peace, what about my good or bad deeds,

Every time I sleep the demons follows me,grim-reaper-taking-a-walk

Across the universe, against the stars I see,

Where ever my dream goes they keep tracking me,

The life is hard but God promise me,

If I win this battle field I die heavenly,

Keeping me from bad things I had in me,

But the fight of God and Demon obnoxious me,

If the life we live in doesn’t bother him,

If the good and bad things doesn’t happening,

If there is no two sides of the enduring,

But my mind follow’s order from both of them,

My soul keeps asking from God and demon,

In their own fight why I drag between them,

I loose my mind, I don’t know what to do,

They keep playing on me like I am a toy to you,Motorcycle Details

Demon why would you, what’s the matter with you,

Why you keep haunting me, leave my soul alone,

I loose control, my mind is not a playground for you,

Whatever you say from now I abandon you,

I know God he is bad but it’s the fight of you two,

I can’t help it so why I am always drag in you,

and I am idiot to always blame everything to me,

So why it would be, every shadow keeps stalking me,

Something happening, something changing inside of me,

I am done, this world betrays me more than lies and greed,

Lies that you ever listen and deny to it,

But it’s the fact so you can’t even hide from it,

Now it’s time, I am not blind and deaf,

I can see the world from the dusky dales,

Sometime I had the dream about the loosing faith,

Oh darn it demon! but I keep my faith stronger everyday,walking_in_the_moonlight

Life is a short trip do not wish to perish away,

To die hard and live forever you can’t choose today,

Life is not your wish, So wish for a laugh and make it worth,

Because you live all summer but in the end its gone and made you stay,

I am tired of acting the moment is so dark,

Hurt me if you want but lies has no story book,

and I am cooked, my mind can’t take anymore,

And gone, I am gone to far off the road,

Now I can walk through all the valley of death,

And find you and kill you even if I have to go to hell,

The animosity of evil can make my stronger faith,

But at the end the grudge can’t even bear my name,

Now God take my soul away,

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That’s why you keep me alive this day,

I can’t hold it against the wall of hell,

Its so much now, they came with all the force they had,

Now I am alone but I fight like a snake’s bite,

But in a minute, I no longer keep survive,

Play tragic but they would not excuse to hurt bad,

I can’t think, my brain is dead,

I keep calling you but you won’t reply me back,

Keeping me crazy from all the lies I have,

Expecting the worst but hoping for the best,

Now make my funeral, I am selling my soul to you for no payback.

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AM

The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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Last Night on the Ship

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Sky and ocean making wonderful night,

Where wind breezes from the sky,

Touch my ears and whisper not to fright,

Just blowing away the ship of knight,

Like a dream become true that night,

Tis me fairy, through the wind just like,

Sparkling stars watching me that night,

Showing ship the way, as they were drive,

Smooth and cold how fishes could survive,

I am looking in the water for a long long time,

I also slept a bit like I have a dizzily eyes,

Something peek from the water, I noticed that time,

Many dolphins follows me, when I spark the light,

Don’t tell anybody, they whisper me in my mind,

As they taking the ship where we sleep alright,

After that night I woke up blind,

I slept in the ship, is that the dream so bright,

I walked through the dock till end of the line,

And saw an island coming towards mine,

I thanks the ship, dolphins and the sky,

After long long time, December again saying goodbye,

I tell the knights to increase the speed so I,

See the land and eat what we desire,

After reaching there, I remembered that time,

As I am so alone and starve to death that night,

But the God, live or die is who decides,

This is the story of that night,

When I fall asleep after many starving nights,

And see all the things like my spirit was alive,

I thank to God for keeping me alive,

And giving me new life after all the hard time, I passed by.

AM

The Sunshine

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I am sitting on the bench at 12 midnight,

Watching a girl who’s playing with ice,

After some time she sit and sneeze high,

I know she’s sad that moment her tear fall from her eyes,

Wind breezes so cold and dry,

Many children’s playing across the pool nearby,

There was also a bridge over the pool placed by,

Where people waiting for their love, their love to come by,

Some couples also kissing like God blessed them with that night,

All peoples wearing warm clothes that it was a winter night,

Wind blowing the snow that was falling from the sky,

That snow is so white and twinkle which made me smile,

That every snow telling me a story like they were alive,

I saw some flowers lay on the river flowing by,

Like somebody throw it hoping for anybody will get it tonight,

And give it to someone to adore her whole life,

What if someone would be me and the feeling inside,

I was scared if she does not love me back and denied,

So what will I do as she is my last hope to survive,

But I know I never stop loving her whether she hates me so I,

Waiting forever in the hope for some part of her might love me tonight,

As this night was blessed by the God, he decides,

I listened a song some children’s were singing,

Expressing their joys in the words which I am hearing,

In front of a shop of flowers which they were selling,

Red roses, yellow lilies and white daffodils were blossoming,

Every flower will sing a song when we giving,

To the girl that we love and the people who we care,

I saw some trees were also singing behind,

As people dancing and cheering, I heard that feel nice,

I got a feeling inside me that time, I can’t specify,

It was amazing, blazing and my time is waiting,

For me to do what I wishing,

A bright light start shinning,

My future get starts changing,

My life get starts living,

It’s like a new breath I am breathing,

The moon lightened me and smiling,

Saying to start a new day with blessing,

The time was stopped at that moment of mine,

I felt amazing but clock was ticking beside,

So slow as I lived in that my whole life,

My heart beating fast in that moment of fright,

But I saw that girl and my eyes got blind,

That it was the moment, I waited my whole life,

I was carried away by the wind and I touch the sky,

She is like a sunshine for me and I dreamed her whole night,

I can feel her so bright like I know her for a long time,

Her hair is so long and black and shine,

She pushed her hair away so I saw her eyes,

So beautiful that I lost my mind,

Her ears and cheeks are red from the cold’s bribe,

I know that night is blushing,

I feel something, amazing, my mind is suffering,

I don’t know what it is but I will find the way,

But felt like the longest route of the day,

Towards her I was nervous to get away,

But excited like I got the angel today,

Of my dreams in that night of Valentine’s Day,

But I didn’t have anything to say and afraid,

To lost her and get back to my old boring life again,

I was crying out for her coz baby I am lonely and stray,

Coz I learn to live from my mistakes and never hurt you I swear,

I never leave you alone in ups and downs we get,

In this journey of life many happy moments we will made,

Life isn’t easy I know but trust me I keep you away,

From all the detours of life and make you extricate,

And bright and pleasant and lively and cheerful again,

Coz more I see you more my love exaggerate,

I was steering her like my eyes doesn’t have to obey,

Moving in her mind’s territory coz into her I am deeply enchanted away,

She is all my notes and every thought of the day,

And for that fraction of second, I was abruptly await,

Like a superman rehab into me and my soul awake,

I take her hand and fly away from all the haze,

Scotch her pity and drank all her grieve,

And kiss her lips until she all blissed away,

Her heart was pounding and her soul blustered blaze,

Little blushing and smiling we both blaze a trail,

All night long we blabbed our souls away,

That moment was very special to me,

As we are siting below the tree,

Up above the sky a star was fallen we see,

Meant to be together forever that is we wish to be,

I will hold you like a princess and love you like a queen,

I will lye you on the bed of roses and travel with your dreams,

Coz you are my angel and you always be the part of me,

The time moving on is like a dream to me,

Like my soul mate waiting for me in the night of daze,

And that moment I was dazzled by her beauty,

The momentum of the moment made me crazy,

God made the couples beautifully and the bests,

That is already been written in the book of heaven,

And we have to wait until someone in your heart, God enlightened,

You will know when you see that girl will be so delighted,

That was the story of me when I see out of my blurred life,

And got the love of my dreams like a sunshine.

AM