Life


Life is just a memory, Life is such a history,

Whatever you want from it, life is just a mystery,

Design the faces in arbitrary, blur the spirit in armoury,

We move on abruptly, without expressing solidarity,

Minutes before the sunrise again it shows the reality,

It loops the time in its brutality and leave you with the curiosity,

Everyday is just the mortality, nothing but the pain and agony,

I asked you what do you want from the broken stroke of serenity,

Nothing left in this world, there is none cheerful serendipity,

Listening to the silence, heard no vibe of sanity,

Voices in my head, becoming new sound of virtuality,

Vision through my eyes is not more than a fictional symphony,

Then why do we live, life always tell the same story,

Even though the storms you survived, they entomb you under six feet dark and gloomy,

Broken souls have a different virtue of gravity,

Life doesn’t know this, its stubborn and after materialistic glory,

New endings of a chapter started, with tacit agreement of haunting,

Crowling towards the time, where you waiting impatiently frowning,

Desires and wishes are crowning from the heart a volcano erupting,

Seductive winds blowing , drawing attention towards the rampage slowly,

Prophecy is not over dear, it comes in a thousand waves bursting,

Can’t be over with life either, it shows its charm in here and after whether you close your eyes or loose mind completely!

AM.

FOX


I was walking on the streets, in the middle of night,

In my mind, i was hoping can i live one last time,

Through the woods, from the hood, i run away from all lies,

I had in me but the demons stalk me around,

Cz i’m out in a doubt, some evil caught me in rocks,

Cz i’m a fox, I can’t even clever him out,

I am bound in a memory of sorrow, deep down,

So i hound my demon back from all the black clouds,

In that bleak route where i seek my revenge right,

Through dark sight, red blight eyes in the inevitable dark night,

Cz I’m alone in this war, nobody help me out,

So i follow my instincts, he didn’t even figure me out,

Life is a game of fame, these people only materialistic now,

The days are repetition but the fight is on the reputation ground,

It’s not a distress call, the ambiguity is for real now,

Forgive me for my sins, I’m not, I’m a hell bound,

Waking up everyday, I did serve my time in this fake lounge 🌎

I’m done with this world, come demon take my soul with you already now!
AM

A Fight From Demon

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That night was as cold as freeze and breeze,

I was walking and thinking how I breath,

Now its me, no wait, now inside of me,

My soul keeps asking what’s wrong with me,

where is the peace, what about my good or bad deeds,

Every time I sleep the demons follows me,grim-reaper-taking-a-walk

Across the universe, against the stars I see,

Where ever my dream goes they keep tracking me,

The life is hard but God promise me,

If I win this battle field I die heavenly,

Keeping me from bad things I had in me,

But the fight of God and Demon obnoxious me,

If the life we live in doesn’t bother him,

If the good and bad things doesn’t happening,

If there is no two sides of the enduring,

But my mind follow’s order from both of them,

My soul keeps asking from God and demon,

In their own fight why I drag between them,

I loose my mind, I don’t know what to do,

They keep playing on me like I am a toy to you,Motorcycle Details

Demon why would you, what’s the matter with you,

Why you keep haunting me, leave my soul alone,

I loose control, my mind is not a playground for you,

Whatever you say from now I abandon you,

I know God he is bad but it’s the fight of you two,

I can’t help it so why I am always drag in you,

and I am idiot to always blame everything to me,

So why it would be, every shadow keeps stalking me,

Something happening, something changing inside of me,

I am done, this world betrays me more than lies and greed,

Lies that you ever listen and deny to it,

But it’s the fact so you can’t even hide from it,

Now it’s time, I am not blind and deaf,

I can see the world from the dusky dales,

Sometime I had the dream about the loosing faith,

Oh darn it demon! but I keep my faith stronger everyday,walking_in_the_moonlight

Life is a short trip do not wish to perish away,

To die hard and live forever you can’t choose today,

Life is not your wish, So wish for a laugh and make it worth,

Because you live all summer but in the end its gone and made you stay,

I am tired of acting the moment is so dark,

Hurt me if you want but lies has no story book,

and I am cooked, my mind can’t take anymore,

And gone, I am gone to far off the road,

Now I can walk through all the valley of death,

And find you and kill you even if I have to go to hell,

The animosity of evil can make my stronger faith,

But at the end the grudge can’t even bear my name,

Now God take my soul away,

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That’s why you keep me alive this day,

I can’t hold it against the wall of hell,

Its so much now, they came with all the force they had,

Now I am alone but I fight like a snake’s bite,

But in a minute, I no longer keep survive,

Play tragic but they would not excuse to hurt bad,

I can’t think, my brain is dead,

I keep calling you but you won’t reply me back,

Keeping me crazy from all the lies I have,

Expecting the worst but hoping for the best,

Now make my funeral, I am selling my soul to you for no payback.

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AM

Dream (deep words)

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When we dream the dream

When we move through stream

Like a crazy theme

And those children stage

Then we old so soon

And the time passes

But we can’t stop to dream

So where the starting lead

Till the ending gone

And we all move on

But we can’t forget to dream

Some are so lucky

Some are so unlucky

But we would do

What the world teach us

That’s the tragedy

What’s the remedy?

But we can’t be free

Our wings tide up

So we losing faith

So we turn our backs

And we loosing shades

For what we dream to be

And starts we dreaming again

And starts we live again

But won’t have that wings

To fly above the sea

And that limit comes

Won’t have that time to thrice

And then do what we do

And here is my time thus comes…

AM

The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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Last Night on the Ship

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Sky and ocean making wonderful night,

Where wind breezes from the sky,

Touch my ears and whisper not to fright,

Just blowing away the ship of knight,

Like a dream become true that night,

Tis me fairy, through the wind just like,

Sparkling stars watching me that night,

Showing ship the way, as they were drive,

Smooth and cold how fishes could survive,

I am looking in the water for a long long time,

I also slept a bit like I have a dizzily eyes,

Something peek from the water, I noticed that time,

Many dolphins follows me, when I spark the light,

Don’t tell anybody, they whisper me in my mind,

As they taking the ship where we sleep alright,

After that night I woke up blind,

I slept in the ship, is that the dream so bright,

I walked through the dock till end of the line,

And saw an island coming towards mine,

I thanks the ship, dolphins and the sky,

After long long time, December again saying goodbye,

I tell the knights to increase the speed so I,

See the land and eat what we desire,

After reaching there, I remembered that time,

As I am so alone and starve to death that night,

But the God, live or die is who decides,

This is the story of that night,

When I fall asleep after many starving nights,

And see all the things like my spirit was alive,

I thank to God for keeping me alive,

And giving me new life after all the hard time, I passed by.

AM

THE ANGEL

Who to define and who realize,

Someone watches the whole over night,

When we were done and hopes give away,

There is some angel waiting to rescue away,

They born with us and hidden remain,

But the noise is always murmuring awake,

Some say they make hay and others afraid,

Till the end of the road they with us all the way,

Life is a journey and decisions we make,

Right or wrong both have some story to say,

We learn and we lose always matters what we do,

They want us to fight back and live through the fray,

We hurt so bad and sometime it’s sad,

Or sometimes it never enough to get back,

But hope is the key to put us on track,

And lives our life’s as quick as we can.

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