The Preposterous Mind

I have been following by the shadow of myself all my life, the man which remains hidden between the woods, the words which is coming out of the moose. The unforgettable state of mind acted like he lives many of the lives. The things he seen, the moments passed never be forgotten from the heart. Life is hard, Life is fast but doesn’t matter how fast we go, we can never catch the fraction of time.

Since we all born with some kind of talent or unique speciality which differ us from each other. Some people would be get known of this but many of us remains. I don’t know what would be the talent which defy me in this area but I can say that whatever it is it’s still remains hidden. Since my childhood I am very fond of the stories and attracted towards nature and the stories of life how they turn their direction and changes their pace with the lapse of time but I never got any answer about that, why would we born in this world? As in this world even the love is very hard to find and to make living in is also another story.

Many things we have to do and many things to be believe in even if in spite of knowing we can’t raise questions. It always like suspense of another climax. Many of the things we regret of doing but yet we laugh.

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The unexpected journey

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So here I am again after a long time, I don’t know if anyone misses me but i am a bit busy past days, there is so much to talk and so much to feel… The whole lane of memories started to rewind again. As I mentioned in my bio that I am a fond of adventure and travelling I completed my studies in different countries and now I got the chance to do my Masters (MS) in Australia, which is a very nice and pristine country and it provides a welcoming and multicultural society with a population that originates from all over the world. Australian people have a reputation for being amongst the friendliest in the world, and the cities are safe and clean with low crime rates. Australia is an increasingly popular study destination with international students from across the globe and especially Melbourne becomes the most livable city of the world.

As my days of departing is getting near sometimes I get tremble with fear but I guess it’s the passion of exploring more cultures and cope with it, to see everything new and experience a diverse lifestyle. As my luggage has been packed, I am sitting in my empty room, not as much empty the furniture is here but from my perspective my things are not in order instead it was packed and thinking about all the good memories with my parents and with everyone in the city.. It’s a little awful at first but eventually I get passed it and move on knowing that the adventure of life isn’t just finished yet but rather beginning to the new era, until the end of the days, until i travel the whole world.

So Australia here I come and Happy upcoming days to everyone 🙂

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AM I WRONG..??

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Wrong timings and wrong actions make your life hell, and how’s that, look into your lives and think of a moment you can do better from your first kiss to divorce, from your first dream to what you really become.1533777

Is that fair..??

Is that really what you expect from yourself..??

Is it your limit..??

These are the questions world don’t understand and rather accept it they gonna blame it on you.. Wish I could make it easy but time is really slowly drifting away and till you really understood the importance of that moment your face gets above the water but your feet didn’t touch the ground and you are in the dilemma of what’s right or am I wrong..!!

We born innocent, we dream big and we are pious and clean from all sins, every one of us are beautiful so the world taught us all the tricks and manipulate us and when we made a mistake they resent us and denied of all the things we accomplished, that’s the tragedy but we fight relentlessly in our all endeavors to say what we are and what we become proudly without any consent of the world because we don’t need one to prove ourselves, we all are craving for cure from our problems.

My life always been a battlefield which made me a soldier of myself unfortunately.. If I say I don’t scared then it must be wrong. I always write some inspirational words for myself and it works like a shield between my despair and hope like:

“You can’t expect from a fish to fly and a bird to swim but they all gonna make their own way”

“We only have to be brave enough to see the destiny” etc.

I have a place where I write my inspirational thoughts when I was going through from bleak days like above as I mentioned and here’s the photo.. I hope it gives every one of you a hope in the midst of terrified problems and even then the world gives you rock-bottom then proudly say “AM I WRONG? THEN I DON’T WANT TO BE RIGHT, NOW ITS ME AGAINST THE WORLD”, Because Every finish line is the beginning of new race..!!

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The Life

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LIFE: A complete word or people say a crazy word but everybody have to live whatever it takes. Truth, Lies, Hate, Love, Adventure, Happiness, Grief, Cry, Laugh or I can say in one word “FEELINGS”, and this is the word in which you describe the whole life, in which we can live in… I feel something when I think about my life at night before going to bed, I got strange feelings but a beautiful force inside me pushing my eyes to get wet and I think it’s the love which every human being gets and the memories sometimes rapture the whole night but why peoples now a days can’t feel their own love with others or stop caring??

Life of today’s world becomes very fast. Nobody have time to think about their own life they are just pushing a system and busy in their own life but when you reach near death u have nothing but love left, whatever you did in the past has gone and your future is about to come, you want many things to do with your life but time is calling you, at that moment you will just sit on the chair and resent all the bad memories and all the things which left incomplete.

So I just want to say in your own life period give some time yourself to think about your entire life’s positivity and what things you can do in a better way and also think about love that how much you get and how much you give and moments you got because life is like a long road which you never seen the end from far but when you reach near, you will not have time to go back and make things right, you just have to wait for the destination to come then.

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There are many stages of life, while you are into some stage of life just go in the flow and don’t worry about the next stage to come but always try to make the moments as you want because we all get one life with many different feelings, if we combine together makes a perfect human being.

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The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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Inspirational Words

You see me as someone who’s popular and has all the answers; that’s not true. I may not always know what I’m doing but I’ll try to make things better. And when I make a mistake, because face it, we all do, I promise I’ll ask for your help. I can’t do this alone. But if you take a chance on me, we can do great things together. I promise, if you believe in me, I’ll find the courage to reach for your every dreams. John F. Kennedy said the courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. A man does what he must, in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures and that is the basis of all mortality.

From the season ONE TREE HILL.. By the way love that season, Its the perfect combination of love and life.