A Fight From Demon

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That night was as cold as freeze and breeze,

I was walking and thinking how I breath,

Now its me, no wait, now inside of me,

My soul keeps asking what’s wrong with me,

where is the peace, what about my good or bad deeds,

Every time I sleep the demons follows me,grim-reaper-taking-a-walk

Across the universe, against the stars I see,

Where ever my dream goes they keep tracking me,

The life is hard but God promise me,

If I win this battle field I die heavenly,

Keeping me from bad things I had in me,

But the fight of God and Demon obnoxious me,

If the life we live in doesn’t bother him,

If the good and bad things doesn’t happening,

If there is no two sides of the enduring,

But my mind follow’s order from both of them,

My soul keeps asking from God and demon,

In their own fight why I drag between them,

I loose my mind, I don’t know what to do,

They keep playing on me like I am a toy to you,Motorcycle Details

Demon why would you, what’s the matter with you,

Why you keep haunting me, leave my soul alone,

I loose control, my mind is not a playground for you,

Whatever you say from now I abandon you,

I know God he is bad but it’s the fight of you two,

I can’t help it so why I am always drag in you,

and I am idiot to always blame everything to me,

So why it would be, every shadow keeps stalking me,

Something happening, something changing inside of me,

I am done, this world betrays me more than lies and greed,

Lies that you ever listen and deny to it,

But it’s the fact so you can’t even hide from it,

Now it’s time, I am not blind and deaf,

I can see the world from the dusky dales,

Sometime I had the dream about the loosing faith,

Oh darn it demon! but I keep my faith stronger everyday,walking_in_the_moonlight

Life is a short trip do not wish to perish away,

To die hard and live forever you can’t choose today,

Life is not your wish, So wish for a laugh and make it worth,

Because you live all summer but in the end its gone and made you stay,

I am tired of acting the moment is so dark,

Hurt me if you want but lies has no story book,

and I am cooked, my mind can’t take anymore,

And gone, I am gone to far off the road,

Now I can walk through all the valley of death,

And find you and kill you even if I have to go to hell,

The animosity of evil can make my stronger faith,

But at the end the grudge can’t even bear my name,

Now God take my soul away,

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That’s why you keep me alive this day,

I can’t hold it against the wall of hell,

Its so much now, they came with all the force they had,

Now I am alone but I fight like a snake’s bite,

But in a minute, I no longer keep survive,

Play tragic but they would not excuse to hurt bad,

I can’t think, my brain is dead,

I keep calling you but you won’t reply me back,

Keeping me crazy from all the lies I have,

Expecting the worst but hoping for the best,

Now make my funeral, I am selling my soul to you for no payback.

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AM

Dream (deep words)

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When we dream the dream

When we move through stream

Like a crazy theme

And those children stage

Then we old so soon

And the time passes

But we can’t stop to dream

So where the starting lead

Till the ending gone

And we all move on

But we can’t forget to dream

Some are so lucky

Some are so unlucky

But we would do

What the world teach us

That’s the tragedy

What’s the remedy?

But we can’t be free

Our wings tide up

So we losing faith

So we turn our backs

And we loosing shades

For what we dream to be

And starts we dreaming again

And starts we live again

But won’t have that wings

To fly above the sea

And that limit comes

Won’t have that time to thrice

And then do what we do

And here is my time thus comes…

AM

The Time

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We are just the crazy moment of life,

Time is divided into many many miles,

We move on with time but the memories reside,

With the moon rise, when the sun hides,

It all starts with the seed grows inside,

A new born baby comes into our life,

They fall from heaven and changes our lives,

And make the memories of our lifetimes,

Every day passes with time, they will grow on,

But we didn’t know how fast the wind blows,

Life is just a myth from dusk till dawn,

And all of a sudden in the end, it will all gone,

Everything resides in our memories for so long,

And we changes with time and new stories will bring on,

We move on with time but time didn’t same as it was,

Alas! We ignore every day but every day counts to build home,

How fast time flies, they say since we born,

It’s like we lives our life in some days unfold,

Life is just a story of many memories withhold,

But we never live in present as long as we want,

We soon become grownups and forget what we want,

And relationships become deeper and soon they will be much more,

Time has the power to unravel our every move,

And solve every problems when we will be moving on,

Time moves forward and save ourselves in past,

We wanted to go back but couldn’t pause the time,

Season changes but we remain same,

Leaves can grow back again but never be as same,

Oh dear! We can live some more days,

But in the end we have to go back from where we came,

Now what, what had to remain,

In the end we realize only the moment goes since we came,

Time passes so fast can’t even grab a shade,

And now after all pass my life, I see myself a boy again,

Sun rises, sun shines, but in the end sun hides,

And leave the sky alone in the ashes of twilight.

AM

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The Life

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LIFE: A complete word or people say a crazy word but everybody have to live whatever it takes. Truth, Lies, Hate, Love, Adventure, Happiness, Grief, Cry, Laugh or I can say in one word “FEELINGS”, and this is the word in which you describe the whole life, in which we can live in… I feel something when I think about my life at night before going to bed, I got strange feelings but a beautiful force inside me pushing my eyes to get wet and I think it’s the love which every human being gets and the memories sometimes rapture the whole night but why peoples now a days can’t feel their own love with others or stop caring??

Life of today’s world becomes very fast. Nobody have time to think about their own life they are just pushing a system and busy in their own life but when you reach near death u have nothing but love left, whatever you did in the past has gone and your future is about to come, you want many things to do with your life but time is calling you, at that moment you will just sit on the chair and resent all the bad memories and all the things which left incomplete.

So I just want to say in your own life period give some time yourself to think about your entire life’s positivity and what things you can do in a better way and also think about love that how much you get and how much you give and moments you got because life is like a long road which you never seen the end from far but when you reach near, you will not have time to go back and make things right, you just have to wait for the destination to come then.

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There are many stages of life, while you are into some stage of life just go in the flow and don’t worry about the next stage to come but always try to make the moments as you want because we all get one life with many different feelings, if we combine together makes a perfect human being.

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The Impostor Syndrome

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So here I am again.. I heard many stories of life, observe many people try to imitate and many to resent, but what is the outcome is trying to perfect ourselves.. many of you think my life is perfect so NO, I am a mess sometime or sometimes I am just craving for cure but its not enough.

Joy is only the part of myself, I usually emulate someone or my own imagination to disguise myself in front of others. Yes I can imitate according to others expectations in my personality to show I am happy, I am doing this for a long time so I can say I am good in this and feel secured not to express my feelings so they cannot judge me, and that’s from what I am scared off.. I think its just because I don’t want to let somebody down and many people watching my steps so it makes me nervous and introvert and sometimes I just ask myself why I was born, whats the purpose of this life he gave me, If GOD is watching me and my misery because I let many peoples down in my life which I don’t want and I am just frustrated from me in many cases so why has he been waiting for something very bad would happen or just already pull me off, this world is not for me and I literally think I should not deserve this, so why all lies wondering in my head. If the universe plan to blemish my life in the end then what good will come from this ??

I am sorry if this is not a happy post but sometimes expressing feelings is the best remedy and this situation happens in many people’s life and they try to take control by some ways/means, but the thing I don’t understand is whats the purpose of all this, Is that the universe trying to examine us, if it is so at what level, is there really any hope, don’t we really have choices or we just already lost the war..!!

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Inspirational Words

You see me as someone who’s popular and has all the answers; that’s not true. I may not always know what I’m doing but I’ll try to make things better. And when I make a mistake, because face it, we all do, I promise I’ll ask for your help. I can’t do this alone. But if you take a chance on me, we can do great things together. I promise, if you believe in me, I’ll find the courage to reach for your every dreams. John F. Kennedy said the courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. A man does what he must, in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures and that is the basis of all mortality.

From the season ONE TREE HILL.. By the way love that season, Its the perfect combination of love and life.

The Last Letter

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Hi Zippi call me whatever you like,

I am getting old but you have whole world alive,

Its been months to see you but I hope you same as I,

Time moving fast but you never leave my mind,

We had a great time together, now I wonder why?

Our first dance together, i can still remember that time,

You held my hands so softly, sometimes I drop the wine,

Smell of yours got in me, from the day I breath you first time,

We were so happy young, once we spend a whole week lying,

Sometimes I laugh but that thought makes me crying,

How stupid I was then but you never complain your whole life,

It makes me sad how you went far from my life,

And I never make a move and say sorry, I was disguised,

It takes me so long to understand now, I realize,

I know I don’t deserve you but I regret that all time,

Every morning I hope you here and Every morning my heart lied,

I would if I could Take it back but the clock never ticks back time,

The past is all I had and those memories in present lye’s,

Sometimes I believe we were together whether you no longer my bride,

I miss you so badly but I can’t do anything tonight,

As I am dying oldly and getting out of your life,

I am sitting on the chair thinking that how we make love in valentines,

I am into you thoroughly and hope you forgive me one last time,

I love to spend last moments thinking about you as my wife,

And love to hear the music in which we usually hymn,

If we were young again, I never leave your side,

I treat you as my angel in better or worse, you are mine,

You far from me tonight but still pounding in my heart cry,

I know you miss me too but never as missed as I am,

visit me to my grave, I desire when you come across your rage,

No matter what it takes, I will be waiting for you there,

Farewell and Goodbye my love, I think last moments of mine came,

I am little scared to die but I hope we will meet in paradise,

Now at last I leave you with this letter tonight, with all the feelings inside,

Which I kept from you those years because I never find the words suffice,

Don’t forget to smile and have a good life,

And everythings will get alright, your’s Jessie, GOODBYE.

AM

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